change of plans_care for myself now
my plans for this holiday season was working on 12/23 and 12/30 to conclude the year and take a couple road trips in between those days off. traveling is very important to me. I am always able to feel recharged, refreshed, allowing new flow of ideas, and new plans or perspectives for things. i like to visit places that i haven’t been to, even just a little town on the map.
and things couldn’t go my way this time. i caught the flu and my body gave in after barely hang on to work on the 23rd. well, this time, it’s the whole nine yards, the usual package people get and my old asthma attacks. oh, boy, i thought i was going to die as i fought so hard to grasp little air into my lungs. as usual, i refused to take any cold medicine. but i had to surrender, and to use an inhaler which saved my life. yes, i administered the acupuncture, the herbs, gua sha, and cupping. but it seemed that after a year of hard working, my body needed this chance to recoup. it forced me to stay in bed for a few days and slept a good number of hours. i was even able to working on some of my beading jewelry projects, updating biz web site, studying lessons from astrology certification course i signed up, and watch some old macgyver tv episodes. i felt guilty of slow down.
i was first upset about my plans gone into the thin air. but if this was what the universe had in mind for me, i am ok with it now. it’s another exercise for me to learn looking at things from different angles, to appreciate, and to be peaceful with the experience.